So i haven't been in touch with people for a while. I'm in pari sitting in my friends' apartment, trying to get used to the french keyboard.
I come back to perth on wednesday, after five weeks away. Boy has alot happened. And i feel somehow changed.
There is so much going on, so much that i thought i could sort out on this trip. and sure, i have a bit more clarity now but i am bringing a large legacy from the last few weeks back with me.
I haven't had much sleep since leaving ukraine. this could quite possibly be due to the nightmares that have ravaged me since experiencing a shocking incident on a bus in ukraine. I witnessed a savage attack on a bus driver, who continued to drive despite the near-death state he was in. when the attack happened i was right up the front of the bus, and saw everything, and was very nearly injured also.
I didn't get the job with DSC and am questioning my worth as an OT. I still have those 5 weeks left to do in january, and am working for the department from when i get back right up til prac.
I saw horrible things in places we were in ukraine. those kids have affected me so much, and i have to figure out how to deal with it all in a positive way. We did some fantastic things i'm so proud of, but these people are in an extreme crisis and i think god is calling me to do something about it.
i've realised how much i need religion back in my life. but how do i reconcile the conflicting parts of my life?
i have realised i can be a very jealous person, but there are situations that are fuelling this at the moment.
i miss my family christmas tonight.
i have eaten sea urchin and oysters, and random raw mince, and snails in paris. but have qlso been priviliged enough to eat the best food i have ever had. I saw an amazing indian jazz band here too, and have had a splendid time exploring paris. After the nightmare i got myself into on the last night in ukraine, i really needed it. oh and when i get bac my sister will be halfway through the gestation period.
I love paris. problem is everything that has happened and is happening makes me realise how easily i could live the rest of my life in italy or england or france.
So i will return with clearly identified goals and plans of how they will be achieved. But I will also return very mixed up

wed Oct 29 @ Rosemount- with The Brow, Tree, and Damien Thornber & Emily Minchin
sun Nov 2 @ Railway Hotel- with Ali Inglis, Candice, Damien Thornber & The Orphans and Blackboard Minds. there will also be a raffle with randomly awesome stuff.
Hoepfully my last gigs solo, and we need alot of assesments and intervention stuff, so need $. plus it will be awesome fun!

2 questions:
-are there pre death cab plans for wed?
-are people camping or alternatively accommodating for southbound?

it's july 3 at the swan hotel if that picture didn't come up

So the first gig with my new musical alias (The Invisible Party) is happening.
This is the poster.

The Preytells are playing at Mojos friday night.
Also the band of a uni friend is playing at Norfolk Basement Saturday night.
Also not this tuesday coming but the one after there's an Indiana Jones fundraiser screening to raise money for OT abroad. If you would like to come and hence help support our efforts overseas tickets are $12 and i have to buy them this friday, so let me know about any of the above

so who's free to hangout friday night?

So i got a call this morning offering me OT abroad in Ukraine instead of India, which will be November to December. This means my last supervised prac will be in september (and i have to choose the place i'm going to for prac).
However as a friend and i are planning to travel places after the prac, it will cost double what the india trip was going to.

So: I CANCELLED MY SWEDEN FLIGHT TODAY
meaning i will still be in australia from now til november.

So i fly out next thursday, and have also been a bit dooshy in feeling like crap lately and seeing very little of people.

POINT: Next tuesday (May 13) at 8.30pm I will be at Gelare in Applecross. It would be nice to see you as i won't see you for at least 6 weeks.
Please attempt to message me if you are coming.
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

So this is the latest:
-today I got told that I am not meeting my supervisor's standards at prac. this means i may fail on the account of having a moody witch scrutinise my clinical reasoning. the ot manager thinks i'm awesome but she's in hospital, which doesn't help.
-my sister was supposed to have a massive operation tomorrow to find out why she can't fall pregnant. it was cancelled tonight. everyone has been crying alot.
-i'm buying a dodgy car in jandakot for $1350 on wednesday. it will hopefully last me a year. to afford said car, current piece of junk will be sold to the wreckers tomorrow
Maybe one day I will smile again.